Hearing Voices
July 25, 2011***Update***
Right after I wrote this all out, I felt better. Seriously, calmer and just about ready to try again tomorrow. I might be back up to 280, but that’s WAY WAY WAYYYYYYYYY better than 440.
I do feel stupid for worrying so much, and I almost deleted this post, but then I thought “Can’t hurt to leave it up.” *shrug*
So no need to call a hotline or whatever, I’m fine, just feeling a little silly for getting worked up.
Here’s the post anyway …
Major battle inside my head.I’m gaining weight, even with supposedly watching what I eat and exercising more. I don’t record every bit of exercise or food, but I see patterns. And there’s a Voice in my head shrieking to just give up, eat whatever-the-hell-I-wanna “because you weren’t gonna do it right anyway, this was inevitable, you big fat cow.Add that to feeling overly emotional lately (weepy, even!) and everything is taking on some greenish tinge of desperation. (It’s not a PMS thing, I don’t have the equipment anymore.)
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